god !

throughout my life, i've faced many struggles, many hiccups along a short life. many thing's that have torn me into a million pieces and i never thought i'd be whole again.

when i was 13, my parents got divorced.. to be completely honest it tore me pieces. i felt alone in the world. i felt unloved and lost.. it was horrible.

someone asked me the question:

"did you become a Christian just because someone said you should... or did you become one because you saw what a Christian was and then become one?"

my response was:

honestly, i became a christian because i needed someone to love me that would never leave me. i thought christianity was stupid because thats what my parents told me from whhen i was young. then when they god divorced i felt like i had no one, no one to be there for me. and i knew that at valley camps they always talked about god loving you and never leaving you and it wasnt until that point in my life that everything they had said began to make sence. i started praying a hell of a lot because i couldnt handle my parents divorce at all,, i couldnt handle any of it. it tore me to peices. their were times when all i wanted to do was die.. but i reacon god brought me out of it. showed me that he loved me and if i didnt pick up my bible in that time.. i wouldn't be here. i wouldve done something stupid. praise god, for bringing such amazing people into my life (:

when questions like these are asked to me.. it really amazes me. god has done SO much in my life! if it wasn't for him, i wouldn't be here.

in the beginning of job 39 it says:

"do you know when the mountain goats give birth? do you watch when the doe bears her fawn? do you count the months till they bear? do you know the time they give birth? they crouch down and bring forth their young. their labor pains are ended. their young thrive and grow strong in the wilds; they leave and do not return."

we read this bible verse out in small groups at youth on friday and it really struck me, our god cares and loves for each living thing on our planet and he has plans for all of us. (jeremiah 29:11) he cares about things that are so insignificant to us.. he plans the life of doe's and their children as he does for us! he has great plans for us!

i'm truely glad i have been able to experience god's amazing presence throughout my life, he is amazing and has changed me from the inside out and i will be forever grateful, as he saved my life. <3